|Well its been a long time, long time now.....
||[Aug. 14th, 2008|10:09 pm]
Half of the time things are good and i am happy.
Then that other half i look at things to realize that its not exactly how i would like to it to be.
I dont like complaining, but i just have a hard time facing reality. Its those occasions where you have long silent car rides just listening to music and enjoying the time. I do enjoy it. But when you start thinking about it, its hard not to get upset. Its hard to hide your face when your eyes start to tear and theyre right next to you, even though they probably dont know what your thinking about. The car ride is nice and even if its just that, its better than nothing.
Its hard that i know i will be like this for a long time. Even though i can be put through a lot, i look past it. If anything really bothered me, i wouldve given up already but its different.
If something makes you happy, why not go for it? Even if it takes a long time.